As I prepare for the big move, I have been reminded that it is easy to be caught up in the doing that we forget about the being; being present, being loving and being full of life makes a difference in the lives of the people we encounter. It takes a lot of determination and self-discipline to keep at it when crisis hits, when you live on less than 5 hours of sleep each night, when you have to walk a mile under torrential rain or when you don’t know how you’re going to get home at night. “Take my fears, my inhibitions, all my burdens, my ambitions.You can use it all to feed them all.”. I believe in the power of individual stories. To the often overlooked hearts & sacrifices. Oh how I desire to be able to be where they are - to be able to consecrate and offer their entire beings to Christ and to build His kingdom. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. Be known. So often, we look at the challenges in our lives either a success or failures. If … But I have realized that God might want to ask us the same questions. It is what we need more than anything. The Meaning of Marriage, Timothy Keller (via . He tell us: “it is not over until I say it is over”. Known and Loved. In the mist of her navigating through her trauma, she is able to look beyond her circumstances. The results of this exam are definitely meaningful and important to the students. I had an opportunity this week to sit with some of the deaf workers and ask them about their background, their life and the things that they want to learn. To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. It’s also fascinating to see how they are able to leave the worries and stress of the workday at the door to take on a new identity as students. Discover more posts about to-be-known-and-loved. But, as they step into the classroom, they become students, learners, individuals with thoughts, questions, dreams, hopes and a story that they are writing for themselves, a story that is looking at a future of possibilities. You are worth so much more then you can imagine or allow yourself to believe. I am still, as I am writing this post, trying to organize my thoughts and experiences of the past month into a cohesive post…. I haven’t written a blog post in the long time….I apologize. For the last three days I’ve been all over the place emotionally, clinging to every post saying Cas is not dead dead, saying his story is not done, but then someone wrote the “but” post and, there I go again, down the bottomless pit of angst. You say that I am chosen, just as every other is chosen because you are a God that transcends over our human condition, over our human laws. “To be loved but not known is comforting but superficial. When I asked her what had happened to her she told me that, as she was walking home from work the week before, two men came out of no where and kidnapped her. Being by the sea just brings a sense of calmness, (and as blasphemous as it may sound to the faithful ear), that sometimes being in front of the blessed sacrament cannot bring. Yet, sometimes, that’s all that seems do-able. Is it passing the exam and holding a diploma? Grace, stop grasping and start trusting in this mystery of God’s love. On the first week of school, the English teacher played that song and had the students sing it. This had led to my friends being held at an arm’s length away from me through no fault of theirs. When everyone thought that Jesus had died on the cross and it was over, he rose from the dead and it changed everything. And as I sat in the adoration room frantically trying to come up with a new piece of reflection for this Saturday’s novena (according to the original theme set of “Community – how to live in Community”), all that was running through my mind was the song Five Loaves and Two Fishes by Corrinne May: “Take my five loaves and two fishes,do with it as you willI surrenderTake my fears, my inhibitions, all my burdens, my ambitionsYou can use it all to feed them all.”. Be loyal to them and fight for them. || romans 8:28 But I believe that there is a much profound meaning attached to it, that is, starting something is great but finishing it is even greater. How can that be? Remind them what’s true and invite them to do the same when you forget. I can’t wait to move away from the U.S. and go to England. This week, the amazing students of our High School Completion Program are taking the official exams of the Haitian Baccalaureate. It has been very overwhelming for me to focus on the work that I am doing when I see the struggles people around me face, when I hear what people have had to go through, when I sense heaviness and hopelessness all around me. To be known is to be loved; and to be loved is to be known. Haiti is beautiful, so vibrant, so colorful and so alive. I have worked hard at memorizing their names over the summer and calling them by name, which has thrown a lot of them off :) They were so surprised that I could remember their name on the first day of class. To say that I have a good grasp and control over my emotions would be a clear lie. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God. I choose to live with my fears leading the way, I need to continually build up walls to prevent that from happening, Or at least to block my vision that I may think I’m safe, Many times before when I show a tiny bit of who I am. He calls us his beloved children, fearfully and wonderfully made, uniquely designed and the very apple of his eyes. (Photo: Mount Tabor adoration room in Church of Saint Francis Xavier). What you need to know dear Sister in Christ, is that you are not just a sacrificial lamb in a man’s vocational call. She was supposed to take a placement test but as she sat down she told me that she was unable to take the test that day. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved … To be known and not loved is our greatest fear. I believe they are living, breathing things, wide awake and filled with purpose. Powered by Tumblr. In that sacrifice and choice, you need to remember that it is as much a part of God’s plan for your life, as it is for his. I had to go to the Ministry of Education on multiple occasions to advocate for each student to be added to the list. Feb 09 2017. 10. You don’t really get anywhere if you don’t know where you are going. As creative and passionate as we can be, the needs will always be greater than our capacity to address them. Your capacity to love and to choose is boundless, limitless. Bridges are started but never ready for use, hospitals, schools, churches,etc…. superrrr chill; doesn’t overdo the cheesiness; he just naturally does cheesy things but not to a cringeworthy level; serenades you over the phone to help you fall asleep By His grace, I had chanced upon a podcast by Sr Miriam James, Heather Khym and Michelle Benzinger, AbidingTogether, and they are currently reading Fr Jacques’ book,  titled “Searching for and Maintaining Peace”, through Lent. I am not going to stop now that I am so close to my goal. However, if instead of looking at the details like the different levels of Hell etc, you look at the Divine Comedy on the whole: it is a journey of spiritual growth and suffering across a surreal and confusing landscape separate from a normal existance, leading to a meeting with God, in order to save a loved one (in Dante’s case, this is his love Beatrice). Resilience to me looks a bit like an endless dark tunnel. How do we not let the circumstances discouraged us but learn to overcome them? But I was so shocked and overwhelmed. But before we go into that, let us first consider one of the first Christian communities ever formed – the 12 apostles….”. Get excited, it's going to be a fun year!!! The deaf community in Haiti is extremely marginalized. And if you feel like you’ve failed, take a look at the process, look at how far you’ve come and what you’ve been through. Together, the students are collectively telling a story that it is possible to finish high school, that hard work pays off, that no one can decide for you what you can and can’t do, only you have to decide for yourself. Another woman told me she thinks she is dumb and will never be able to learn because of the number of times she was hit in the head by her former husband. I lock my phone and place it by my bedside, and am at once enveloped in darkness. How could they have known me for me, if I didn’t give them the permission to come close to support me and be there for me? But I love the message of the song: “I believe I can fly, I believe I can touch the sky. My over-reaction came from the fear that if my friends thought lesser of me, that they would not love me as much. Mar 28. Talk about over-compensating! You can’t rise up if you don’t think you can get there. You are immensely loved by the Father – your heart is precious and absolutely priceless. || romans 8:28 While he makes the call to end the relationship because he has experienced the call from God to the priesthood, you do so with no immediate and real options to turn to. It wasn’t over, actually, it was just the beginning of a new kind of relationship God was establishing his creation through his son Jesus-Christ. I feel like I am been productive. As if I hadn’t already made enough of a fool of myself; I’m just going to let this train wreck keep on going. booked, bags are packed and details are sorted out. Though both you and him have to experience the pain and the struggles in sacrificing the relationship, a struggle that is unique to you is that you are called and invited to do so in what seems like a vacuum. What do you do about it? Success is a determination. Sometimes, it really is worth it to take that risk and be vulnerable and allow yourself to be known. It has become the norm not to reach completion. November has been hard here for everyone; time of political transition, manifestations and strikes have taken a toll on everyone. Be so brave as to raise a hand for help when you need it. See a recent post on Tumblr from @trinitykuknyo about not-loved. I found myself constantly restless, easily frustrated and very tired. Have you ever felt that way? When I began to feel overwhelmed by envy and sadness, I decided to finally heed the prompting and scrolled through my blog posts. I cling on to the hope that just like the wave that begins in the midst of the sea, one day it reaches the shore. He invites me to remember that I can only allow myself to be loved if I allow myself to be known. See a recent post on Tumblr from @sarah-bait about i-want-to-be-loved. But one spoke out to me as the text came in just when I was drafting the first few paragraphs of my new reflection piece on Community living. I believe that all of us, wherever we find ourselves, are called to reach out to the people around us, acknowledge them, value them, show them they are known and cared for until they can see it for themselves. Games We Have Known And Loved A collection of people's favorite moments in games. Would love to focus and be known for doing art someday. Why does the right way always seem impossible? Another man who has been called by God to labour to yield the plentiful harvest that is waiting! What does success look like? 1.5M ratings 277k ratings See, that’s what the app is perfect for. It’s about empowering them and encouraging them to believe they can find strength within themselves to finish what they started. But to be fully known and truly loved is, well, a lot like being loved by God." I made that choice a few weeks ago because I felt the increasing fear that sharing with others would just over-burden them and felt the need to “deal with it” myself. 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